I have always had a love-hate relationship with this new ability to hide from your emotions through a screen or device. It has certainly come in handy when dealing with confrontation or sharing painful feelings with another. But on the other side of this, it can be quite frustrating. Especially when someone is confessing their love through an anonymous source.
Many of you might be familiar with the app Sarahah. This is where you can share your opinions or feelings about someone to that person without giving away your identity. It honestly sounds terrifying so I am not quite sure why I had the inclination to download this, but I did.
So the other night, I was sitting by a bonfire with some friends when I got this anonymous message from what seems like a friend of mine. The message said:
“I only wanted to get physical at first… But I eventually fell in love with you:) I wish I could say that to you in person. You are a great human being… Stay happy”
Of course, I was extremely shocked by this. I had no idea that there was someone out there that had any sort of feelings for me. I can’t seem to figure out who this mystery man is and it is driving me insane. There is one person that I have always had feelings for that I want it to be, but I was under the impression that he was still fighting for his ex, so I doubt it was him. I brought it up in conversation with him yesterday to see if he would confess but of course he didn’t. I can’t shake the feeling of how great it would be if it was him though. We are just friends; well I’m his friend, and he is my secret crush, but we talk about basically everything with no filter which is fantastic. But who knows, he could see me as just a sister.
If that is the case, then who is this mystery man who is apparently in love with me? I can’t get in contact with him at all, so I can’t even talk him into sharing his identity with me. What is a girl supposed to do with this information? Just walking around possibly having just spoken to someone who is head over heels in love with me, without even knowing it was him. As a hopeless romantic, I want this person to step forward and do something. Maybe not confess his love to me, but at least ask me out or something. Because for all I know, he could be my soul mate and he is wasting time being intimidated by me.
Needless to say, I am going to end up driving myself crazy looking for this guy. Comment if you have any tips on how to stalk an unknown person. If not, wish me luck!